First Love

from by Calvin Martyr

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[Verse 1]
How did I get here, never wanted to be here/
Not clear but I know fear was always near/
I didn't wanna lose her, didn't wanna refuse her/
So I did anything she asked me/
But it never fulfilled, it was just a feel/
Filling for the moment, but it never was real/
Now I'm so empty, Lord I'm so empty/
Numb to the world that's a feeling that's so iLL/
Can you tell me who can put together broken hearts/
Who can make me new, mayne I need a new start/
Pain in my soul I just gotta be free/
She ain't no good so she gotta leave me/

She ain't never she ain't never been good for me/
And she ain't never been, no, she ain't never been, no/
All she ever wanna do is see me cry, see me die/
I don't know why, I don't know why/
So I'm running running running back to my first love yea/
So I'm running running running back to my first love yea/

[Verse 2]
Thought that I could handle the way she do things/
I was a player who got played/
Thought that I could handle the way her mood swings/
She had me walking around cray/
Afterwhile life was a dream, death was my king/
Come to find out she was death's queen/
That's a death ring, what a death scene/
I was living just to die, on death's team/
Sick of the cycle I'm breaking free/
You ain't make me, you ain't making me, you ain't breaking me/
I no longer will believe ya lies/
This ain't love, you want me to die


from Martyrism, released March 11, 2014
Produced by: Flawless Tracks



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Calvin Martyr Austin, Texas

Calvin Martyr is an innovative & transcendent Christian Rapper. He has solidified himself as one of the premier lyricists in the live music capital of the world. Martyr's rap opus brings the light of the Lord to dedicated fans of the genre, mixing styles while simultaneously covering a variety of topics situated near the concept of faith, earnestly investigating the struggles that lead to it. ... more

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